I am sure it doesn’t just happen to me. Other people must think the same questions that seem to come out of the blue, in idle moments, and shock you.
Mostly it’s:
‘what is the point of all this?’
‘What does it all mean anyway?’
‘Isn’t it just a waste of time, we are all going to die anyway?’
Maybe that last one is just my own darkness, but it drives me to find the purpose in my actions. It drives me to take the things that I do daily and connect with them with a greater purpose outside of myself, otherwise I would just stop doing the little things that I consider important. (Although these questions can help you re-define what is considered ‘important’).
As I have refined my thinking over the last few years, each time these questions come, I add a little more to my philosophical outlook on life and create more of my purpose.
Historically, my purpose is to “speak words that bring life”. It has been for 15 years. But what else, what does that actually mean?
Lately my thinking has been along the lines of “creating a better world through creating better people”.
This isn’t the final edit though. There is more refining to come, but the theme is clear. I find my purpose in bringing life and growth. I find my purpose in giving. I find my purpose in generosity.
I don’t have the language nailed yet, but aren’t we all just a work in progress?